The latest thing I've learned about
writing is something I really didn't want to know.
It's this: I write best in the morning, before I've even stood up to
make my morning tea.
I am
so not a morning person. I hide for the first hour after I wake up,
if I think it'll help me avoid talking to anyone. My husband gives me
a hug, and then beats a careful retreat, because I am a grizzly bear
if I've been awake for less than that required hour.
Mornings
are for tea, toast, and dark chocolate.
But
then, in some freakish lack of judgement, I put the computer where I
could reach it in the morning, and actually started writing as soon
as I was awake.
You
know this is nonsense, right? I really love it that I've discovered
the way to circumvent my brain's endless chatter, endless need to
“check” something on the internet. When I'm still waking up,
strangely, I care little about the outside world. It's the perfect
time to write.
Even a
cup of tea niggles me into the rip tide of to do lists and
insecurities, but it's still better than trying to write in the
afternoon, or late morning. Those are doable, especially if I turn
the internet off, but much harder.
As Chogyam Trungpa Rinpoche said, we're like big babies, always
searching for a nipple to suck.
Less
so in the morning, apparently. At least for me.